I awoke to the sound of silence and grasped at something that wasn't there
The pillow that rests beside me has an indent and remnants of hair
I remember the time I cleaned your wounds without blinking an eye
The time you opened your heart to me and could do nothing but cry
I still find memory bombs in old boxes and notebooks
In pictures I've hidden but still sneak secret looks
This feeling inside me is something not new
The pain, the hunger, the longing for you
I cried when I saw you dressed all in white
An stood with you on the edge of the world that same night
We threw our pasts into a hole never ending
You held your heart in my hands prodding and mending
I gave it back all shiny and new
I held mine out and you looked at me like you had no idea what to do
You pulled so far away that I couldn't feel you here
"I will love you always and forever" are words I still often hear.
I guess it's a little sad and melancholy for something written on the eve of my birthday but I still like where it started and where it went. Thanks to all of you who actually read my blog posts. I know you don't comment but it still means a lot to anyone who comes here and spends even a second reading my words.